Along the Way

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2011-12-31T16:27:00.000-05:00

Philippians 3:13–14

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! I don’t know about you, but I am glad this particular year is ending and a fresh new one is about to begin. (About 8 hours (EST) for me!)

In my family, listening to friends, and praying with others at Church Online, it is readily apparent that I’m not the only one who is glad to say farewell to 2011. It has indeed been a hard year for so many of us!

My 2011 started out OK. I was working as an “at home” tech support person. Not my favorite thing to do. It also called for making a lot of changes, and at my age, change does not come as easy as it once did. Nevertheless, it put a good kind of change in my pocket.

In March I became ill and eventually had to quit the job. While seeking the cause and later, going through treatment I lost over 30 lbs. My glucose also took a very positive downward turn and, on the “bummer” side, I picked up/re-adopted a few bad habits. My health is greatly improved as is my appetite-and I’ve since gained back all but 10 lbs. I also have a TV addiction that was a comfort when I was sick but is now where I turn instead of doing the things I should, would, and could do. (Paul expresses my dilemma in Romans 7:15)

All that being said, as we enter into this new year, I am taking the advice that Paul gave in Philippians 3:13–14 … and forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead.

For me that includes quitting smoking. I begin this journey on January 6, 2012 and hope to blog about this adventure on Fridays. I have committed to a “partial TV fast” for the next 21 days in concert with others from Church Online team and leadership. This isn’t the easiest for me as my beloved hubby is in the business and much of our lives revolve around television. It’s also a prime part of how we connect and spend quality time together.

I’ve got lots of “need to do’s” and “want to do’s” mapped out for the coming year-including getting healthy. More than just going on a diet, it means consistent exercise and accepting that it doesn’t happen over night. The more difficult part is deciding which are valid and which are just wishful thinking.

This brings me to my “One Word” theme for the year. I haven’t yet made a choice between CONSISTENT or ACCEPTANCE. I may even take on double duty and choose both! As the year progresses, I hope to write a bit more about these two here at "Along the Way". I can't wait to see where our Lord is going to take me!

One last look behind before forgetting: This past year, most of all, has taught me that I am never alone. I am most thankful for all of you who have been there for me; my husband for his support, my family for their concern, my Church Online family for their prayers, and God for His ever-present help and love. Now let’s all get out there and STRAIN FORWARD!

BRING IT ON 2012!

Advent Light

2011-11-27T11:46:00.000-05:00

According to church tradition, today is the first day of Advent.

ADVENT is defined (Holman Christian Dictionary) as a word with Latin roots, meaning “coming.” Christians of earlier generations spoke of “the advent of our Lord” and of “His second advent.” The first phrase refers to God’s becoming incarnate in Jesus of Nazareth. The latter phrase speaks of Jesus’ second coming. In a second sense “advent” designates a period before Christmas when Christians prepare for the celebration of Jesus’ birth. This practice may have begun in some churches as early as the late fourth century. Advent began as a time of fasting. Sermons focused on the wonder of the Incarnation. By the Middle Ages four Sundays had become the standard length of the Advent season. Since then, Advent has been considered to be the beginning of the church year.

There are many reasons this time of year is special to me. First, it signals a new beginning! I don’t know about you but I like the freshness of starting “new”. Second, I love to read the many scriptures that tell of the coming of the ONE who would save us from ourselves and who loves us so much that He laid down His life ..and best of all is coming back!

For many years I’ve followed a daily devotional from NavPress/Discipleship Journal and will do so again this year. Today’s scripture is Isaiah 9:2-6 and the questions for thinking on this week are very similar… How much darkness does it take to overcome light and how much light does it take to overcome darkness?

As I consider this, I can’t help but remember that we, as believers are called to be the LIGHT of the world…and that our light can, and will overcome the darkness that is our present day. I pray that as we hurry and scurry about taking care of all that the Christmas season brings, we shall also let our light SO shine that others will know who we belong to.

If you would like a copy of the devotional I’m talking about please let me know. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Being Thankful

2011-11-23T14:36:00.000-05:00

Ah, gotta love this time of year! I just got mom-in-laws sweet potato pies out of the oven. She's no longer with us...so I've taken on this tradition and feel so privileged to carry on her recipe.

I have so very much to be thankful for-especially this year! A long term illness kept me away from so many of the people and activities that I love but now, I'm on the mend AND quite a few pounds thinner. My health is recovering-in fact better than ever and I'm starting to plan for next year already.

I am thankful for ALL who stood by me in prayer as I went through treatment, and most of all, my husband who kept telling me I was getting really skinny, all the while a constant wrinkle of worry on his face. I'm thankful for my children and grandchildren who pampered me more than I could stand at times -and for my Lifechurch.tv family and friends who prayed me right into being healthy again.

As we get nearer to the end of this year and into the next, please know that I am thankful for ALL of you!

By Their Fruit…

2011-09-24T16:40:00.000-04:00

By Their Fruit…

I confess, I’m a bit of a political junkie (or “wonk” if youprefer). I’ve been at least minimallyinvolved since before I was old enough to vote-actively lobbying for the “18year old” vote back in the ‘60s. And yepI was sort of arrested for it too. Atthe time, I was 17, married to someone serving in the military (this during VietNam war) and who was also 17! It just didn’t seem fair that he could serve butnot vote. BTW, I was also honored toserve a little bit later.

Over the years, I’ve continued to follow the major electionsand in the last few years as I’ve gotten older, continue to be somewhat activein the campaigns of the candidates of my choice. I consider myself an independent moderate andregister and vote that way too. I lovemy country and am so blessed to have been born an American with the multitudeof freedoms that we have…freedoms that aren’t available in a lot of otherplaces in this world. My most preciousfreedom is to worship as I choose and I have chosen to follow Jesus, Histeachings and all that is written in the Bible. Truth be told, I love God and by His strength live this way each andevery day.

OK, so now you have a bit of background on where I stand. My priorities in life could be stated simplyas 1.) God (as a Christian) and 2.) Country (as an American). For sure, I have a lot of others but for thepurpose of the thoughts to follow, I’ll leave it at that. When entering thevoting booth, these two priorities are fundamental to my choices.

If you haven’t already noticed, we’re at the beginning ofwhat promises to be a very contentious election season although the actualvoting isn’t for almost 14 months…and already the competition to be the nextpresident of our USA has gotten heated. The political party hoping to gain the job currently has 8-9 contendersand so there have already been a number of televised debates. Have you watched any of them? While I’m not happy with the current economy and overall state of our country(been out of work myself for quite awhile), I have been unhappy with some ofwhat I’ve heard from these hopeful politicos. And so I will likely choose to re-elect ourcurrent president. (Just trying to be honest here…I like what he’s trying to do…mostof the time. I read his book “TheAudacity of Hope” and have no doubt of his love of country (or his birthplaceand eligibility to hold this highest office). I agree with where he’d like tosee our country go, what his hopes were and likely still are.

That being said, I also want to hear what those seeking theoffice have to say-with a completely open mind. Quite a few of the candidates freely professJesus, and claim their faith and beliefs in Him as Lord. Unfortunately, during a few of these debatesI was shocked at some of what was said, and also by what was not said, whenmany of the audience cheered for things that are so out of line with Histeachings.

A few examples…

Most recently, an active duty U.S. Marine was booed after askinga questions about “Don’t Ask Don’t Tell” change in policy. While thecandidate later said he would have said something if he’d heard the crowd, I’mafraid I have to wonder. What reallyscares me is that someone who freely and truthfully discloses something aspersonal as this-to an outwardly and supposedly gung-ho patriotic and “Christian”audience was so vehemently aggressive in their distaste for homosexuality. I have to wonderwhat the response might have been if this soldier hadn’t disclosed his orientation. I realize that homosexuality is not somethingGod wants for us....But is there one person out there who hasn’t sinned? I don’t think so (Romans 3:22–25).

In another debate, a candidate almost bragged about his stateexecuting more people than any other. ..And again, the audience cheered. Thesame was true when a candidate spoke about allowing a person who can’t affordor doesn’t have medical insurance to just die. Again, no protest from the candidates. And these are the same folks whogenerally disagree with the idea of folks needing to purchase this sameinsurance. Can you say hypocrite?

Needless to say, I’m confused. These candidates and theirsupporters are fond of saying this is a Christian nation. They talk of values, and morality and ethicsand yet here they are showing no love, no mercy and no compassion!!! I just don’t get it-where are their priorities-REALLY? Are they truly followers of Jesus and desire to live by his teachings or isthat conditional on how popular their words make them? And the audience? It seems to me that when their favorite politician tickles their ears it shows more about what's really most important to them and theirtrue, deeper feelings. I could go on with other stuff but I think you get theidea.

What the Bible says…

So, here are a few things from the Word that color mychoices. I hope you will take it to heartand know that I’m not picking on a particular party, candidate or political ideology. I just don’t like double minded folks and hypocrites and neither does the Lord!

Matthew 7:15–16 They come to you in sheep’sclothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognizethem. (Read Matthew 7:15–23 for context)

Galatians 5: 22-26 But thefruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness,faithfulness,gentleness and self-control. Against such things thereis no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful naturewith its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in stepwith the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.(sound like apolitician to you?)

Micah 6:8 He has showedyou, O man, what is good. And what does the Lordrequire of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly withyour God.

John 3:16 (If you don’t know this one…shameon you! ) Emphasis forme is “so loved the WORLD”

Mark 12:31 with Luke 10:30–37. …and who is your neighbor?

· In Matthew 23 (and elsewhere) Jesusspoke of the hypocrisy of the Pharisees.

I suppose I could go on forever! Scripture is so rich with guidance on how touse the privilege we have of choosing our leaders…especially if our firstpriority as Christians is truly following Christ. To sum up and (finally) getto the point—I have two issues that really upset me during the politicalseason. One is hypocrisy and the other is that it seems that so many believeeverything that these “would be Caesars” say without verifying and/or listening to multiple views. I am hoping that you’ll read this andcomment whether agreeing with me or not. I WANT to hear your views. I want to know what criteria you have for choosing our leaders. More thanthat, I hope you will put your faith before your politics, and really evaluatethe one you would choose-and decide what is more important to you-God orcountry…and act on it as you think Jesusmight. (And don't forget to register to vote!)

Ileave you with this:

1 Cor. 13:13 (again, read the full chapter for maxiumvalue) And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest ofthese is love.

Ten Years After...

2011-09-07T11:58:00.002-04:00

WARNING: This is a VERY long post-almost a novella…

About this time last year, I wrote a post about why Ihate September…and yet it keeps coming around for some reason, still tryingto be my friend. I try, I really do tryto get over it, get past it but to me 9/11 is more than just an emergencynumber or a date…and I suspect that it’s the same for most, if not all of us.

In the decade that has passed so much else has changed, also. The least of which is I’m ten yearsolder! How did THAT happen-especiallysince that day so long ago seems to be frozen in memory even now. I’ve been essentially unemployed for the last3 years and due to an extended illness have stopped even looking for the timebeing. Since getting laid off at myfinancial services job in February of 2002, I’ve never been able to find asimilar position-even though I’ve tried. I DO try to get into the City a fewtimes a year and just went the other day-right to what is now called GroundZero and saw the progress of what will someday be 1 World Trade Center. Admittedly, every time I go there and up thevery long escalator that once was IN Tower Two, I can’t help but think of thatday-and I wish I could escape. While onthe way to my final destination, it just so happened that a commercial planeflew overhead and again, my heart pounded. Silly stuff I know and you know too, if you’ve had to stand and getpractically undressed and poked and prodded and scanned in an airport.

All that being said, I have watched a few of the programsthat are currently rampant on Discovery and NatGeo, and think I’m using it toanesthetize myself for all that is coming. I’d like to say that tears no longer well up; that an airplane overheaddoesn’t cause me to look to see where it’s going and most of all that it wouldjust be another day. Ah well, maybe next year!

Many of you have asked me to share my 9/11 experience so Iwill tell it today. Keep in mind that ithas been awhile and I do see things differently than at that time. Hindsight is 20/20.

As I’ve said in the past, I was working on the corner ofBroadway and Exchange Place, once short block and directly across the streetfrom the New York Stock Exchange. Sometimes I took the PATH Train and sometimes I took the ferry-botheventually got me a short 15 minute walk to the office. On that day, I took the ferry. It was an easy day, so I was in casual dressand even my sneakers.

As I got off the ferry, at the foot of Wall Street (andSouth Street) I couldn’t help but notice how incredibly blue the sky was. Tothis day there is no better word than that it “sparkled” in the clarity. As I walked toward the office, around 8:45 AM, I hadn’t noticed anything,or heard anything either and starting winding my way through a couple of backstreets toward the office via my “usual route”. As I got to Hanover Square a LOT of ash started falling and I knew therewas a big fire somewhere. I was wearinga white button-down shirt and another commuter and I ran under the eaves of thenearest building. He shared a section ofhis newspaper as we both decided to go for it and get to our respective offices. I got there about 5 minutes later and askedmy receptionist if she knew what was going on and we quickly tried to see whatwe could see from our 10^th floor windows. I got back to my desk, booted up and decidedto call my husband who works for CBS News to see if he knew anything. It was at that time that I learned that a planehad run into the building… and as we were on the phone, the second planehit-9:02 AM.

Almost instantaneously, the announcement came to evacuatethe building and boy was I glad I wasn’t wearing heels that day! I was also glad that I was only on the 10^thFloor and going down instead of up! Imet my boss and other fellow employees downstairs and got the go ahead to tryand make the “last ferry” back home as we had all heard by now what hadhappened and that officials wanted the area clear. Not sure to this day why I thought it, but Iwas in a huge hurry to catch that “last ferry” that was due to leave at 9:30 formy destination.

As I crossed Broadway it seemed the crowd was driving menearer and nearer to the WTC and that is NOT where I wanted to go. New Yorkers are notorious “looky-loos” and tosee this tallest landmark on fire was definitely an event. I eventually got up against a wall and mademy way to Wall Street and toward the ferry. ..Back-tracking my earlierwalk. As I came to Hanover Square, I sawlots of debris and paper, and machinery and yes, sadly, human parts. I don’t know why but I picked up some of thepapers (and still have them) which were from Cantor Fitzgerald –a firm on the105^th floor. Also, a funnything, despite the impossibility of getting cell phone calls in or out, mysister was able to get through and I stopped and let her know that I was ok,going to get the ferry home and to tell my dad and kids that I was safe.

As I continued toward the ferry I stopped to try to get theuse of a pay phone to tell my husband what I was hoping to do and eventuallygave up. The crowds were starting to getrude and anxious and violent and I just didn’t want any part of that. I was also still fearful that I would missthat last ferry. As I made it to thedocks I realized that EVERYBODY was there that wanted to get off the island. Overhead, on the FDR it was a scene right outof a horror film. I remember thinking ofthe original Godzilla movie as Tokyo was evacuated. And then—the first tower fell and people wererunning all over and I once again took refuge against the side of a building,huddled with so many others. I couldn’tbelieve it at first, when people told me what had happened. This was the first time I realized how afraidI really was. I RAN the last couple ofblocks to get to the ferry terminal to try to find out how to get back home. By this time I also learned that taking aferry was the ONLY way to get out of Manhattan as all trains were stopped. I was blessed in that a ferry usually wentright to our waterfront development as well as to other New Jersey destinationsacross from the city. The majority ofpeople were covered in the now infamous “tower dust” and most had that “deer inheadlights” look too. I’m sure I musthave as well. I hadn’t previouslynoticed but my white shirt was now brown and had quite a few ashy burnholes. I later learned that they’d beenthere as a result of the initial falling ash – before I’d gotten to the office. Soon I heard an announcement to mydestination but it would be awhile.

As boats came to the docks, they quickly filled up and left andanother would take its place. I can’t say how long I waited and then I sawit. Roaring down Wall Street directly infront of me, another huge cloud was coming-seemingly right at me. If you’ve ever seen video of a volcanoerupting and the ash roiling down …well that’s what it looked like. It was right then that I knew it could be “mytime to go home” and I just closed my eyes and prayed- Out loud and with amultitude of others! As this monsterreached the floating dock me and 500 others were standing on, it rockedferociously and it was just plain too late to try and get to solid places. As it passed, and the dust was clearing (andon its way to Brooklyn), we couldn’t see it but we heard a jet roar directlyoverhead. I can smile at it now but haveyou ever seen half of New York go to their knees in the “duck and cover”position all at the same time?

Around 11:30 AMI finally was able to board a ferry that would take me home. We have a small commercial area that includesa deli/liquor store where I stopped and got three packs of smokes and two verylarge cans of beer and I’m not even a casual drinker. What strikes me now is the blank, shockedfaces of all those who were around me. Covered in the dust of what used to bethe World Trade Center, it reminded me to of pictures I’d seen of those takenwhen the concentration camps of WWII after liberation. We were now safe but what lies ahead? Is this really happening? Where are my lovedones?... My friends and co-workers? After just hanging with Sammy, the deliproprietor, for awhile, I made my way to our apartment. While the phone wouldn’t let me call out, Iwas able to receive calls-and blessedly, I had the internet, though it was awhole lot slower.

My beloved Scott was eventually able to contact me, as wellas my family. During that time, I took photosfrom my balcony and first got to know my neighbor Anna. I often walked down tothe deli for coffee and stayed glued to the news, my heart breaking as thereality of the devastation and loss of life tried to seep into my psyche -andstill not fully believing. Needless tosay, I didn’t sleep much, dozing on and off and switching between the news and “SaturdayNight Fever”, “Stayin’ Alive” playing over and over in my head.

Scott got home late on September 12^th and I finallylet loose all the tears that I’d kept in. I can’t fully remember what I said but I do remember just clinging tohim and thankful that I wasn’t alone anymore. I later learned that he’d had hisown time of panic and dread (via co-workers). He knew where I might be when the towers fell and until he was able tocontact me, thought I might have been lost.

In the days that followed, a few things from then stick in my brain: a friend whosehusband worked at Cantor Fitzgerald asked us if we could go to Liberty StatePark to see if her husband might be there. Initially, a place had been set upfor survivors to be taken for care. Unfortunately, just as the many hospitals were also preparing forsurvivors, the services went unused. What do you say to someone who still has athread of hope that her husband survived when the news shows differently? To get away from the house, we decided todrive to Hoboken a few days later just to be around others I think. While wemay not have said a word, we needed others; we needed to see life after thishorror.

One of my most striking remembrances is all the cars parkedalong our main street to our development. It had rained a few days after and somany of the same cars were still there. Dust and mud and grime covered them nowand I couldn’t help but wonder how many of those that had driven there to catchthe ferry would never return. A fewdays after I also checked my phone and realized there was a new message-a callfrom my son John (31 at the time) who had previously worked with me and knew mydaily routine…and had a few friends at the Commuter Bar where he stopped afterwork. While I don’t have the message anymore, the fear in his voice at the timeof the call (9:15 am on 9/11) still brings tears at times.

I returned to work about two weeks later for one day. I was supposed to be on vacation and just hadto go back to check on co-workers. We had kept in touch as much as possible viathe net but there’s nothing like seeing them alive and well. There was so much dust and debris stillaround. Cables laced the streets as dida huge armed police and military presence. And the smell permeated everything for months afterward.

Believe it or not, I actually flew out to Idaho for myyoungest sons’ wedding celebration two weeks later. I met my dad and son John in Salt Lake City. While there was definitely a securitypresence, it was like being on a different planet. I really think that I was glad at the time. Ineeded to run away I think and that’s pretty much what I did.

In the years since-I’ve tried to get over it, get pastit. For a time afterward I was reallyangry with God. In Feb. 2002 I was laidoff and truth be told, haven’t had a really good job since. I still fear planes flying overhead and Ishudder at most any loud noise. While it has gotten better, I still tear upwhenever I see photos or video of the towers burning. I try to avoid them and at the same time stillforce myself to watch to try and anesthetize myself in the hope that one daySeptember 11 will just be another day on the calendar. So far it hasn’t quite worked. Physically, the burn scars have almost faded,though I still get rashes at times. Iwas told that breathing the air down there may be why I wheeze so much-and evenafter quitting smoking, it seems that when faced with this day I start upagain. STUPID! I try not to cry and to be strong, mostly forthose around me. In my family I AM thestrong one so maintaining that façade helps-sometimes.

My family will be here tomorrow (9/8) and we have plans togo to the newly opened Memorial. I willmake a point of looking for the name of my friends’ husband and saying a prayerfor her and her little one. Of course I’ll take photos-and yes, I’m sure I’llcry. I’m not angry with God anymorewhich is the best part of surviving. In the years since “that day” I’veactually drawn closer and regularly visit Trinity and St. Paul’s churches whereI used to go on my lunch hour to help out. Best of all, I’ve learned more about forgiveness. ..But Lord please,help me to never forget!

True Freedom is...

2011-07-04T08:19:00.000-04:00

Here in the USA it is “Independence Day” (aka Fourth of July-duh!). It is a time of barbeques and parades and yep-fireworks (If safe and legal). Historically, we celebrate because on July 4, 1776, a collective of 13 British colonies issued the Declaration of Independence, which proclaimed their right to self-determination and the establishment of a cooperative union. These rebellious states eventually defeated the British Empire in the American Revolution, the first successful colonial war of independence.(check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States for a history lesson)

Websters defines “freedom” as follows:
FREE'DOM, n.

1. A state of exemption from the power or control of another; liberty; exemption from slavery, servitude or confinement. Freedom is personal, civil, political, and religious. [See Liberty.]

2. Particular privileges; franchise; immunity; as the freedom of a city.

3. Power of enjoying franchises.

4. Exemption from fate, necessity, or any constraint in consequence of predetermination or otherwise; as the freedom of the will.

5. Any exemption from constraint or control.

6. Ease or facility of doing any thing. He speaks or acts with freedom.

7. Frankness; boldness. He addressed his audience with freedom.

8. License; improper familiarity; violation of the rules of decorum; with a plural. Beware of what are called innocent freedoms.

Pretty lofty stuff huh?

I especially like # 1 as a succinct definition in the context of this particular holiday. But what does it really mean to be free? Does it mean we can do whatever we want, whenever we want without regard for the safety of others? What about THEIR freedom? Is it any more or less important than mine? And how do I reconcile my exercise of personal freedom with the freedom I have as a Christian-especially considering that while I am “in Christ” I am His servant, and at the same time Scripture plainly states “we are free indeed!” ( John 8:36 )

And so I did one of my favorite types of Bible Study-a “word” study on FREEDOM. I limited it to usage as a noun and found a total of 14 references (NIV)and within that discovered there are FIVE different Greek words that are translated “freedom” It was also discovered that ALL references to the noun “FREEDOM” are in the New Testament!

Reference	Form	Greek Strong’s
Luke 4:18	ἄφεσιν(1)	Strong’s Greek #859
Acts 24:23	ἄνεσιν(2)	Strong’s Greek #425
Romans 8:21	ἐλευθερίαν(3)	Strong’s Greek #1657
1 Corinthians 8:9	ἐξουσία(4)	Strong’s Greek #1849
1 Corinthians 10:29	ἐλευθερία	Strong’s Greek #1657
2 Corinthians 3:17	ἐλευθερία	Strong’s Greek #1657
Galatians 2:4	ἐλευθερίαν	Strong’s Greek #1657
Galatians 5:1	ἐλευθερίᾳ	Strong’s Greek #1657
Galatians 5:13	ἐλευθερίαν	Strong’s Greek #1657
Ephesians 3:12	Παρρησίαν(5)	Strong’s Greek #3954
James 1:25	ἐλευθερίας	Strong’s Greek #1657
James 2:12	ἐλευθερίας	Strong’s Greek #1657
1 Peter 2:16	ἐλευθερίαν	Strong’s Greek #1657
2 Peter 2:19	ἐλευθερίαν	Strong’s Greek #1657

1) 859. ἄφεσις aphĕsis, af´-es-is; from 863; freedom; (fig.) pardon:— deliverance, forgiveness, liberty, remission.^{^[1]}

2) 425. ἄνεσις anĕsis, an´-es-is; from 447; relaxation or (fig.) relief:— eased, liberty, rest.^{^[2]}

3) 1657. ἐλευθερία ĕlĕuthĕria, el-yoo-ther-ee´-ah; from 1658; freedom (legitimate or licentious, chiefly moral. or ceremonial.):— liberty.^{^[3]}

4) 1849. ἐξουσία ĕxŏusia, ex-oo-see´-ah; from 1832 (in the sense of ability); privilege, i.e. (subj.) force, capacity, competency, freedom, or (obj.) mastery (concr. magistrate, superhuman, potentate, token of control), delegated influence:— authority, jurisdiction, liberty, power, right, strength.^{^[4]}

5) 3954. παῤῥησία parrhēsia, par-rhay-see´-ah; from 3956 and a der. of 4483; all out-spokenness, i.e. frankness, bluntness, publicity; by impl. assurance:— bold (× -ly, -ness, -ness of speech), confidence, × freely, × openly, × plainly (-ness).^{^[5]}

Go ahead, look ‘em up! One thing that especially sticks out to me is that while we are indeed FREE, we are also taught guidelines(bold references above) for exercising this freedom we have. Aha! Counting the cost of this wonderful freedom. In other words with freedom comes responsibility. And what is at the heart of these admonitions but to protect the weak in the faith, and not be stumbling block – serving one another in love and lastly to not utilize our freedom as an excuse for evil.

From a strictly political standpoint, while many decry the many laws and regulations we, as Americans, are subject to-I am reminded that so too are we subject, as Christians to the guidelines in the use of our freedom in Christ. Some might argue that these two types of freedom are like comparing apples and oranges but I would disagree. And as we, as Christians, are called to this higher standard I suggest that we are no less subject to the laws of our great country even if we may disagree with them at times. As for me, I will do as our Lord said “Render unto “Caesar” what is “Caesar’s” and unto God what is God’s. In daily practice and obedience to God, I will first practice the guidelines that Scripture plainly states about utilizing my freedom—serve, protect, and love!

And so today, while we gather together, remember that while we are free, we are guided by Scripture to exercise our freedom as Americans, and Christians with a view to serve others.-in wisdom and love.

I’d really be interested in knowing what freedom means to you. Also, jot me a line below if you like these word studies. I utilize Logos Bible software daily in my studies and devotions and highly recommend this invaluable resource for those who are really “into the Word” ala geek.

Weird This Way

2011-03-11T19:12:00.002-05:00

As you are likely well aware, the huge disaster in Japan has been described as "apocalyptic". If you haven't seen the video coming out of this horror I really gotta wonder where YOU are J

In times like this I have been known to have imaginary conversations with God….ok…so maybe they are more like prayers but a lot more free-flowing. Of course the first question is "Why Lord? What purpose is there in this? All the devastation and loss of life makes no logical sense to me!" I also consider what my beloved unbeliever might say… "Where is your God now? If He's so benevolent, and all powerful, why did He let this happen?" Naturally, me being one ol' gal in the USA I really have no answers. I don't know truly what to say.

During these conversations snippets of scripture often also comes to mind. Mostly I think about my Lord's return—especially when there's an earthquake involved. (Matthew 24:1-35 , Mark 13:3-31 , Luke 21:7-36) and my thoughts wander to what else is going on in our country and the world right now. The turmoil in Libya (and the people rising up in Egypt and Tunisia), the financial crisis that continues here in the US and around the world (and the dominance of "corporate power i.e. the rich are getting richer and the poor poorer), the divisiveness that is found in our own democracy with the continued bickering of our law makers.

And then I MUST get back to some of the basic promises God has made to those of us who chose to follow Him…

I will never leave you or forsake you-Deut. 31:6 ; Heb. 13:5
He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. – Mt. 5:45
…and my personal favorite when I'm having a crisis of faith, which is part of what this imaginary conversation is really about "Where were you (Donna) when I laid the earth's foundation (Job 38:4)

All that being said, and so much more as He answers and comforts me, is what its all about really. Trusting, believing and acting in faith – sometimes even as I cry tears of sorrow or frustration or anger. And then I go where David said my God, my Good Shepherd leads. (Psalm 23:1-6 and if you don't know this one at least a little…check it out!)

Book Review: Thriving Despite a Difficult Marriage

2011-01-01T12:20:00.001-05:00

This book came to me some time ago. During that time my son was struggling in a rough marriage and having just finished reading this, I was able to help him to come to decisions based on his faith. He "borrowed" the book for quite some time and I just got it back. As a result of his reading of this book, he came to some hard choices and is slowly healing from divorce and the sense of failure that so often accompanies relational loss. I strongly recommend this book to anyone who is wrestling with a difficult marriage BEFORE making any decisions. It offers a number of scenarios, scripture references that point to why the authors make the suggestions and offer the guidance they provide. Regardless of your situation, if you are a Christian in a problematic marriage, this book will advise, encourage, uplift , giving hope and light. In my opinion, as a former therapist, it is sound and yet honest advice for anyone. If you feel that your situation is too difficult and your marriage is not worth maintaining, READ THIS BOOK! You'll be so glad you did!

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from NavPress Publishers as part of their Blogger Review Program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commision's 16 CFR, Part 255: "Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising."

Are YOU Berean?

2010-10-26T12:03:00.000-04:00

Acts 17:11Now the Bereans were of more noble character than the Thessalonians, for they received the message with great eagerness and examined the Scriptures every day
to see if what Paul said was true.

The Bereans are one of my favorite peoples that Paul ministered to while on his journeys! Not just because they received his message but more than that, they investigated for themselves what the Scriptures said. In other words, they went to the source, the best and last word-Scripture!

One of my pet peeves is that people quote or otherwise express opinions without first checking the source for themselves. Many go and "eagerly receive" a message from the pulpit and then implement it without first studying for themselves what the Word really says. After all, the pastor IS a man of God isn't he?

In this age of information overload this really puzzles me. Today, we have access to so much more than did the Bereans and yet we hear something-whether from a leader or a commentator or some YouTube video and take it as truth without SEARCHING for ourselves!

About the Bereans

BEREA [beh REE ah] — a city of Macedonia about 73 kilometers (45 miles) west of Thessalonica (modern Salonika). On his first missionary journey, the apostle Paul preached at Berea (Acts 17:10) with much success. The Bereans were "more fair-minded than those in Thessalonica," because they "searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so" (Acts 17:11).

The Berean Jews were "more fair minded" (or of more NOBLE CHARACTER) because they valued truth and so daily tested Paul's teaching against their standard of truth, the O.T. The Thessalonian Jews had been more concerned with the number of Greeks who showed respect for Judaism than with truth.

What this says to me is that they took personal responsibility to find out the truth for themselves instead of taking the word of another. Like the Bereans, it is my opinion that we should search out the truth, whether in Scripture study, in the news, on television and yes, even on the internet! Especially on the internet.

Going even further, just as when studying our Bible, consider motives, customs, and culture!

Before you vote…

Getting more to my point…we're in the last days of an election season. Needless to say its pretty ferocious out there as politicians scramble to get your vote. It is said (and yeah, I've checked sources) that this year more money has been spent than ever before to win the privilege of representing you in Washington D.C.

The airwaves (and the internet) are full of all kinds of negativity and ugliness as far as I can see. My hope is that, regardless of how you may vote-GET OUT AND VOTE! Going further, I pray you will not just take the words of a well crafted ad, or a popular commentator or even a news story and especially NOT a video found on YouTube. I pray instead that you will be Berean-MORE FAIR MINDED and listen to all sides (even those you disagree with J ) before going to the polls next Tuesday. Making a truly sincere and informed decision is your choice.Don't be swayed by those that tickle your ears-check it out for yourself!

BE BEREAN

…the cruelest month

2010-09-11T09:15:00.001-04:00

I've been pretty uncommunicative of late. It's just that I really don't like September. I know it seems strange to not like a "month". It's really just a way that we mark the passing of time, of years, of seasons. Nevertheless, I really don't like it when the calendar brings me to this place.

What is really strange is that I know its coming. That right after the hot August nights comes the cooler air heralding the onset of the Fall season. September sees the temperature drop 10% almost overnight. The pool in our neighborhood gets locked up, and the previously welcomed breeze quickly changes to a cooler and more energetic wind that knocks the leaves from the many trees surrounding me.

Oh, I know the reasons. September seems to be when many hurtful things have happened in my past. One, my first marriage, which when ended, left me an insecure, emotionally drained single mother of four. The loss of my dad, in 2003, which was totally unexpected, found me having to acknowledge my own mortality and that yes, I was indeed getting nearer to "leaving the building", with so many dreams left undone.

Of course, you know the saddest one. On September 11, 2001 I was a project manager for a financial firm in the heart of lower Manhattan. The office located about 3 blocks from the World Trade Center. I'm not going to go into all that I saw that day, or how scared I was, or the shock and horror of even the next few days, when I was, at last, home. After all, I DID survive, right? Except for this nagging distaste for September.

So, now you know why I don't like this month.

As the years have passed, and healing continues, I am trying, today to "forgive September". Given all the ugliness, bigotry, and hatred that now surrounds the event that, for a time, brought us all together, it's not easy. Some of our "leaders" are now politicizing what was a time of unity. Even so-called "Christian" folk are saying, proposing and doing horrid things.

Husband and I were talking last evening, as the "Tower Lights" were on for a moment, reflecting brilliantly off the clouds above. The place where the light reflected looked like what I'd seen in countless movies just before something ominous was to happen. As we discussed current events, our lives now, and the political divide, the view from the balcony seemed more and more representative of all that was REALLY accomplished on that morning nine years ago.

Never mind the 3000 that were lost, or the buildings that fell, or even the scars, emotional and physical. As we fight about buildings, books, and the "right" kind of government-the bad guys won. They have us at each other's throats, and we are divided. Dare I say it? I imagine that those who attacked us on 9/11/2001 are looking at the news and congratulating each other "mission accomplished".

Quoting from scripture (Luke 11:17), Abraham Lincoln said it best; "A house divided against itself cannot stand". Of course he was talking about slavery, but isn't the fear-mongering also a type of slavery? Isn't feeling that others are evil because they are different a kind of slavery? And isn't looking back to "the way it was" also a prison? Isn't "my way or the highway" a kind of fence that prohibits moving forward, and keeps us from the peace and unity that really IS what we desire?

Ah well, I'll be glad when September passes.

What would Jesus say about Islamic Center near the WTC site?

2010-08-21T11:21:00.000-04:00

What was, initially, a local (NYC) issue has now become media frenzy throughout our great country. I've especially seen it become a political furor, and no wonder, as it IS an election year.

Of course you must have guessed by now that I'm referring to the "mosque" NEAR the former World Trade Center site or "Ground Zero". As the uproar has festered and become a national issue and fodder for politicians to raise their voices, I have become increasingly discouraged that so many of my fellow Christians seem to have forsaken some of the basic tenets and teachings of our Lord. In fact, my heart breaks and I wonder "What would Jesus say?"

Some background :

I am a survivor of the terrorist attacks of 9/11, working at Wall St. and Broadway…getting caught in the "lookie-loo" stream that tried to take me nearer while I fought to get far far away. I got caught in the debris of both fallen towers, have scars to this day of burns suffered, and that's just the physical stuff. I saw horrors never before seen on an NYC street and I still look up when I hear a plane nearby. Mentally and emotionally, while I have healed, there is still hurt. My balcony looks out across the Hudson River where there is now a hole in the skyline. Ok…hoping you get the picture, While I didn't personally lose a loved one, I have a sense of their pain. I "get it" OK. That being said, these same folks who are calling the actual WTC site "holy ground" have held up construction at the site for various and sundry reasons. In part, IMHO because they really never got any closure. Truly I hurt for them.

All that being said, over the years whenever a politician wants to get attention, or express outrage we hear "Remember 9/11" or "national security"

What most distresses me is the huge negative response from many of my fellow Christians. It seems to me that, while still calling themselves followers of Christ, their loyalty to their favorite politician has blinded them, or at least given them some selective memory. It distresses me that a church in Florida is holding a "Koran burning party" . I don't know enough about this church to comment on their beliefs, but I bet these same folks would be outraged at a "Bible burning celebration"!!! Jesus said we are to LOVE our enemies! Matthew 5:44–48 Where is the victory in vilifying those whose beliefs are not our own? And really-are ALL Muslims our enemies? I really have to wonder if these folks have ever read the Koran! Even MORE scary is that I would like to ask if they've ever truly read what Jesus taught!!!

Have folks who protest this building, or other mosques in other parts of the country given any thought to the truth that Jesus died for them too? John 3:16 (please note the word "WORLD") How would these same feel if we, as Christians were the underdog in this? Didn't Jesus say, love thy neighbor AS thyself? Matthew 22:37-40. My question and one I believe Jesus might ask is "WHERE IS THE LOVE?" As Christians, isn't that at the very heart of all we believe in? Have so many lost sight of the truth that God is sovereign and in control? 1 Peter 2:13–17 I really and truly resent those who claim the fellowship of Jesus Christ and yet have so much HATE! And Jesus warned them too! Matthew 7:15–23 . In my ears I hear from these protesting Christians "Lord Lord, didn't we protest mosques, burn others holy books and kill Muslims in Your name"

It hurts that so much real HATE SPEECH is out there because someone is a practicing Muslim. SO WHAT if they are! Some politically motivated groups say that our President Obama is Muslim. Again, SO WHAT! This one is, IMHO, just a disguise for those who are really upset that a black man is president and/or that their political party is not in power. Check it out! Never mind the fact that before he was elected these same folks were outraged that he was a 20 year(?) member of a church that featured a pastor who had, on occasion, spoke in terms that were also hateful.

All that being said, let's get on to some facts:

First, it is true that those who perpetrated the 9/11 attacks and many others are indeed Muslim. That does NOT mean that all Muslims are terrorists! I submit that these use their faith as an excuse to force their own beliefs on others and it's not really about religion but about POWER. Throughout history, all three major religions (Judaism, Christianity and Islam) have done the same. Check it out people!!

Remember that many of the Muslim faith are also descendants of Abraham-and blessed by God Genesis 17:20. It amazes me that so many Christians who embrace Israel as a "cause" forget this truth from Scripture.

People of the Muslim religion have been in our country practically since its founding.

The Cordoba Initiative and Imam Rauf are of the Sufism sect. A very moderate "denomination" of the Islamic faith. Check it out for yourself. Use your intelligence and do PERSONAL research people, instead of listening to all the talking heads whose REAL motive is television ratings, getting re-elected, etc. In other words $MONEY$, POWER, INFLUENCE which of course leads to more of the same if they win.

Imam Rauf has worked with the State Dept of both political parties to foster a better understanding and dialog with our Muslim neighbors. Remember Jesus teaching about peace and peacemakers? Matthew 5:9

Summing up I am feeling very ashamed right now. Ashamed of those who blindly protest without practicing the Berean method (Acts 17:10–11) and do the research for themselves! Ashamed of those who, under the guise of "American patriotism" foster hate! Ashamed of those who, in the name of Jesus Christ, burn books that others regard as holy! While I empathize with those who lost loved ones in the 9/11 attacks, I believe its time to FORGIVE and get on with it. Jesus said a LOT about forgiveness too. Matthew 18:21–22

I hope that this has given readers some food for thought. I am interested in hearing opposing views too.

Consider This: The Power of Words

2010-07-24T10:52:00.000-04:00

Prominent in the news this week was the story of USDA employee, Shirley Sherrod, who was fired after a blogger/commentator posted a video snippet of a speech she gave 20 years ago without first reviewing the entire speech. In other words, Ms. Sherrod's words were taken so far out of context that it ended in her being fired! Half truths compounded by irresponsible laxness in fact-finding, led to a major change in her life.

I am not encouraging a political discussion or even commentary on the media's failure to thoroughly investigate before broadcasting in this age of 24/7 news What I DO want to discuss is the art and science of communication in this technology driven, socially networked era.

A little personal history…
My own experience with internet communication began way back before the advent of the WWW, SocNets(social networks), and even email as we understand it today began while I was in the USN, using Arpanet to send email and files. Honestly, at the time I had no real understanding of how it worked. What I DID know is that what was sent was reviewed, edited and scrutinized by lots of folks before that button was pushed.

Later, while in college, I was doing research for a paper. Earlier, my first PC was a TRS80-III and now I needed something much better. With the new computer: a sign up floppy for CompuServe. Needless to say I now wanted a modem! The fastest out there was a 1200 Baud; and yes we used a phone line/dial up!

Inadvertently, I discovered an area of CompuServe called "CB Simulator". Essentially a group of "channels" of various interests, where people actually chatted Real-time! In case you're wondering-this was back in 1988 or so. OK so I'm aging myselfJ. (BTW, this is also where my beloved and I first met- A long time before eHarmony!)

More recently, I spend most mornings as a volunteer at CHURCH Online which features chat to accompany the Worship Experience. I serve with a great group of people from all over the world. To make it really exciting, we also get many who discover the ministry via AdWords after searching for uh, other things.

Many of our visitors and volunteers are relative newbies to Church Chat, though they often have experience with IM or some other text-based live chat application. Of course there's also FaceBook and Twitter, where we can share our lives in 140 characters or less!

In recent days, how we communicate in this chat has led me to discover what I believe is a problem in every day communication…which is not thinking before we share as well as not fully realizing that the people on the other end may take something we type in a way other than what was intended.

In the olden days when it was all ASCII text we used a lot of the same emoticons that are in use today. These little symbols coupled with abbreviations (<s>mile, <gr>in, etc) helped us to put our words in context, giving them the intended "flavor" we were trying to express. Additionally, fully understanding the ENTIRE conversation taking place was a given before pushing the ENTER key. In other words, scrolling back to see what was taking place before and ALWAYS keeping it in context.

Lessons from Scripture

James ( James 1:19 ) gave some great advice that I'd like to see practiced more often, in all our online communications: "My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry". Later, in James 3:1-12 he provides a lesson about how powerful our words can be.

What may seem a quick, "witty" line may be mis-understood by others new to the environment. While regulars know what is going on, visitors don't. Even those who frequent the room can be taken out of context by others who are also regulars, if they just entered.

The bottom line- THINK before you push that enter key! Be aware that the words you type may not be how others see and understand them. Get a grasp of the conversation in its entirety-not just the immediate lines you see. Consider how others who aren't familiar with you or the conversation may perceive your words.

Whether its Twitter, Facebook, IM, or a chat room consider your words! Philippians 4:8 is something to take to heart as we communicate, regardless of the medium. Following this advice can never go wrong!

Christmas in July

2010-07-15T10:05:00.015-04:00

Ever had one of those spontaneous and uncontrollable urges to hear a song NOW? I'm talking about a real and powerful urge to drop everything and hear it! Today it happened to me and I'd like to share a little of how it came about.

My daily devotional readings for this year come from The 365 Day Devotional Commentary by Larry Richards (a part of my Logos Library). Today's reading begins the transition from OT to NT with Matthew 1-2.

Matthew begins, first showing Jesus' human lineage and then quoting from Old Testament prophecy to show that Jesus IS indeed King of the Jews. The long promised Messiah.

As I read, I came to the passage where Matthew refers to Isaiah 7:14, and that one Word that got me going: Immanuel! (And I bet you know the song, too.)

A little background: This last Christmas was my first time serving as a volunteer at church during the season. If you don't already know, I serve at LifeChurch.tv-Church ONLINE. Their presentation of "O Come O Come Emmanuel" has, so I've heard, become a classic! And THIS is the song that played in my brain to the point where I just needed to stop what I was doing and play it.

I located it on You Tube, and closed my eyes and started singing, still in my head. Very soon, this just wasn't enough..I needed to stand. Then raise my hands in praise, then dancing-and praising and worshiping until tears fell, and I cried out in love for all He is, for all He's done, and for all the promises He made!

You see, I've been going through one of those dry spells. Not really a "valley" or dark time. Intellectually I know and believe that our Lord is always with me. Daily, I spend time in reading and study of the Word, I pray (sorta) and I journal. Truth be told, I have just been going through the motions lately. I'm sure I'm not alone in this. You know what I mean-impersonal, unconnected.

And so today, led by the Spirit, I celebrated Christmas! Not just the baby in the manger, but the truth that God IS with us-with ME, right here, right now, all day, EVERY day. So often, I think, especially at Christmastime, we focus on this wonderful blessing and all too quickly get back to the mundane. Why can't we celebrate all day every day? After all, He is with us 24/7/365.

The glow of that brief time, fully surrendered in loving worship has faded. Ah how I'd love to just stay in His presence like that. Now I know how the Apostle John felt on Patmos-to be so thoroughly enthralled by our Lord! And like John my heartfelt prayer is AMEN! Come Lord Jesus! (Rev. 22:20)

Looking Within to Look Ahead

2010-07-03T21:16:00.003-04:00

I can hardly believe it myself but it's been 6 months since I've bothered to blog about this road called "life"

Back then I mentioned that the last day of the year was a day of reflection on what was behind, and goal-setting and planning in anticipation of what would lie ahead. As I wrote I also mentioned that seeing as how I'm now in the "mature" stage of life, that I had come to accept that I just couldn't do it all as I had in the past. While I said it, and believed it then, well, ACCEPTING it just didn't come as easily!
Soon after I wrote that and the family departed after the holidays, I was all excited and ready to get to all those things I mentioned. Well, that too quickly went by the wayside and my sense of personal integrity very quickly diminished with it.

There were a number of things that soon altered the path of those grand plans. First, the "Margin" series at church which really brought home the truth that MY plans had none. OK, so back to the drawing board…and just when I thought I "got it", along comes the "Forgotten Virtues" series that again blew my seemingly wonderful goals and ideas out of the water and me into a spiraling emotional and spiritual crisis. As I cried within, and took it the One who knows me best, He provided a bit of guidance as I was reading one day. 2 Corinthians 13:5 says "Examine yourself…test yourself…" …and so, since then, that's exactly what I've been doing, even now.

As to accepting that I'm leaving one season of life and entering into a new adventure-well, it still isn't easy. I feel the aches, and can forecast the weather by them too! I see the wrinkles starting to form around my eyes and realize I'm looking more and more like my mom. I'm also learning to appreciate the unscheduled afternoon nap which I find is needed because I can't seem to sleep for more than 4 hours a night. And most of all, as I continue to get used to this "getting old" thing, I am (most of the time) giving myself permission to stop trying to do so much!

I, like most people, I think; am my own worst critic. I'm still quite a perfectionist in all I do and with that comes the procrastination. After all, if I can't do it right, put it off until I can! I set lofty (can you say "unrealistic") goals then beat myself up when I fall on my face. Did I mention that this has been a pattern throughout my adult life? Consequently, as another year and another birthday passed, I felt even more and more unworthy, useless, hopeless with each day that I didn't accomplish what I wanted!

Along the way, the lessons I've learned are many. The greatest one is that I am loved with an everlasting love just as I am. I am accepted by God and need only love Him and my neighbor-even as He loves me-UNCONDITIONALLY! That being said, I've been a lot more into the Word, and more disciplined in prayer. Each day I ask only to accomplish what I can and trust God that this is all I can do and more so NEED to do. Best of all, I'm starting to like this "getting old" thing. There is a certain freedom in going slower, doing what I can and most of all believing that I'm right where God wants me.

My prayer is that you all have a safe and wonderful Independence Day. But remember that our only real freedom comes from knowing Christ! (Gal. 5:1 & Col. 2:8)

If you would like to see the messages from Church ONLINE that I referred to check out the archive

Farewell 2009

2009-12-31T13:20:00.003-05:00

Can you believe it? This year is ending and a new one is beginning in less than 12 hours (EST)! As is my practice, I spend this day reflecting on what has passed and looking with sweet anticipation toward what 2010 will hold for me.

I know I haven't blogged for quite awhile. The many changes, inside and out, that life has brought left me speechless. As I will soon be celebrating my 57^th birthday, I have had to recognize that there are just some things I can't do anymore. The bones ache and creak, my health, while generally good, needs much more attention and Lord knows that as much as it hurts 30 minutes of exercise everyday is the best way to stave off the inevitable aging process.

Being out of work and not able to find work has been a trial. I praise God for the loving support of my husband, family and friends. I am truly blessed beyond measure! Why, even as I write, two of my grandchildren are nearby! And because of their visit, we had our very first LIVE Christmas tree with all the trimmings, that heavenly evergreen aroma and even the joy of the mess!

Being out of work has also had some great benefits!!! With more time, I have been blessed to serve more often at my church – Church Online !!! Talk about blessings! With serving came new friends, some opportunities to mentor others, and most of all a closer walk with my Lord and King!

Looking ahead I have a few goals. One is to really WORK on my ministry – Abiding Ways . For the few who have previously signed up…please forgive my extreme negligence. After the family departs for home, I hope (and please pray) to implement all that God has shown me to do. While the concept has been "out there" for years, I often allowed the circumstances of living in this world to overcome my desire to teach. THAT is going to end-God willing. My "word to live by" for this year is INTEGRITY. I pray God will hold me accountable to this aspect of character.

Another goal that I really would appreciate prayers for is to quit smoking! Sadly, this is on my goals list every year in recent times and it is long past realization. My "quit date" is on my birthday (2/3) so if you and I should have contact—ask me how I'm doing, OK?

Other lesser goals include getting rid of some of the clutter around here; actively doing what it takes to get/keep my diabetes under control (and going to the M.D.); actively pursuing my custom built Bible Studies plan and grow in grace, knowledge and understanding of my God and His Word. After all, how can I teach others effectively if I don't learn it myself? Lastly, I will again attempt to read through the Bible every day this year. My Logos library has a devotional that I'll be using.

Finally, my verse to live by is Micah 6:8 and do what the Lord requires of me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

Numbers 6:24-26

Adjusting to change...

2009-10-03T08:47:00.007-04:00

This has been an interesting week! As I continue to adjust to the changes of life and the heart pains of the struggles of my loved ones as well as my own, I have been reminded over and over that God is the same all day, every day! (Heb. 13:8)

I spent Monday in serious self-examination...a scary thing for sure...and came to the major conclusion that I needed an attitude adjustment! So, fine, a good place to start, or so I thought initially.

Later in the week, with few exceptions I fell back into some of the less satisfying but most time-consuming activities since the changes and for a time, remained there. How easy it is to slip back into negative behavior, and the self-recrimination that comes with doing so! So much for adjustments.

Thankfully, the Lord has shown me much from His Word this week about His promises and that His power is made perfect in my weakness. And just how weak I really am, especially when I forsake my personal disciplines via procrastination and prayerlessness.

Much of my reading has been in Romans this week. Such a rich letter! In it there is much to meditate and ponder as well as practical instruction, especially for this prodigal daughter!

During this adjustment period it is right where I needed to be! So much of the "basics" with practical instruction that just happens to deal with much of what I've been struggling with.

At the heart of the entire letter is one passage Rom. 1:16-17 and as I read this, I had to ask myself seriously how much I believed that I was forgiven? Further reading throughout the week assured me that I am, for even though I was in lackadaisical fellowship with my Lord, I hadn't lost my faith in Him. And as previously cited in Hab. 2:4 and throughout scripture-our faith, weak as it may be, is counted as righteousness in God's sight.
In one of the devotional commentaries that I use, the writer explained that this means that when God looks at me (even when I am hiding, He sees), He sees Jesus-the perfectly obedient example of righteousness! He doesn't see my straying off the path, or the stubborn neglect of quiet time, or even the laziness inherent in my running and hiding in television. All He sees is Jesus in me!

How marvelous is that!!! And what a catalyst for the heart-wrenching desire-to change my attitude, my outlook on life as it is and to look ever more devotedly to Jesus.

Atonement, Change and Calling

2009-09-27T08:21:00.004-04:00

I've been MIA again as I adjust to a multitude of changes, a plethora of personal issues, and most of all a lot of bad choices. My apologies to those who have signed up for the 3D Online class. It IS on the way - just so terribly behind schedule that I am ashamed.

The last few weeks have left me with so many questions and silence from God on most, if not all of it. Admittedly, I confess that His silence made me angry and frustrated and so, I began to slip out of my devotional and prayer time..NOT RECOMMENDED. So here I am, trying to get back to who I am.

Tomorrow (or more correctly tonight at sundown) is the beginning of the solemn Jewish holy day Yom Kippur. You may know it also as the "Day of Atonement" The text is Leviticus 16 for those of you who may be interested.

Being a Jewish Christian, I still set this day aside for fasting, prayer and a mitzvah, or "good deed". In the past, I used to grow my hair VERY long and the day before, would get it cut and donate to Locks of Love. In more recent times, I will give to the local foodbank or volunteer somewhere when possible, or just look to the Lord to lead me where He wants me.

Please keep in mind that Yom Kippur, I believe, was ordained by God for the Jews and pointed toward Jesus as the One Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world. (Read Hebrews 9-10). It is a personal choice and calling that I return to my ancestral heritage, to honor God and that heritage. Blessedly, as Christians we are no longer under the law!

This year, however, with the many changes in my routine and a lot of family issues on my heart and mind, I hope to just get back to who I am. In the midst of all that has transpired in recent weeks, I lost sight of God, wandered away (or maybe RAN?) and found myself in a pit that seemed almost impossible to climb out of. And then last week I was confronted head on with my behaviors and actions in a message by Pastor Craig. It was one of those times when I felt like God was talking to me, and spanked me, hugged me and sent me to "time out".

So, as I prepare my heart and mind and spirit for reconciliation and return to the joy that is found in relationship with my Lord, I ask for your prayers, your forgiveness if I have let you down in some way.

I am back to serving at LifeChurch Online 3 days a week. Hope to see you there!

Wrestling with God

2009-08-15T07:47:00.004-04:00

(Gen. 32:22-32)

I am comforted by scripture in knowing that I am not alone in the trial of the past few weeks. That Jacob, a prominent patriarch, also has done so assures me that it isn't sin.

The last few weeks have been a strange trial! I was conflicted in my calling, wondering at why I didn't want to go to the job I really do love. Torn between my love for God; desiring to serve Him full-time and my responsibilities to my family, my employer, and ministry. It is definitely one of those "rock and hard place" conflicts.

I poured my heart out to one of my sisters, who had asked a simple question about something totally unrelated...even considered calling my LC Online pastor. Prayed, fasted, prayed some more and then God spoke in a big way!

I spend a lot of time in devotional readings, using a number of sources including "The 365-day devotional commentary" by Lawrence Richards.(via my Libronix/Logos library). "Our Journey" (Walk in the Word) and "Daily Bread" (RBC Ministries). One day last week collectively, these three brought an answer and resolution to the battle within. I was told by God "not now, Donna, maybe later"

Ultimately, my will and God's will were at odds. I wanted to serve Him full-time, be a great teacher of His Word, have a successful website ministry, serve more often at LifeChurch.tv Online, and put into action all the great ideas I had, including going back to school via Moody. The problem for me was "time". With work, there just wasn't enough time and energy in me to do all I wanted to do. Because my beloved is not yet a believer( but I have hope), his reception of such a calling would be less than excited. And what about funding, and the discipline to do all that I wanted? I had to admit that I am not the most focused person when it comes to the hard work involved (recent notable is a scheduled class online that has gone by the wayside-and a general lack of website updates).

Taking all of this into consideration as well as some specific direction from scripture, I realized that while my heart is in the right place, the circumstances were not. I had some help from Luke-(Luke 10:38-42) reminding me of the "Martha syndrome" and that being "busy for Jesus" isn't the same as serving Him. Also relevant to my conflict was Heb. 4:9-11 which talks of "resting from my own work" and entering God's rest...and lastly 1 Cor. 7:20 -remaining in my current circumstances.

So, for now, the web ministry is a priority, and going slow at it too! The 3D Online study is beginning on Sep 12, and I've been asked to do a study on the book of Luke which is a possibility. I will start classes at Moody spring semester-I think (depends on finances at the time-but trusting God for more specific direction) and I will keep working at my job at CUNY until they throw me out the door.

One of the bigger lessons I've learned is that God has His plan for my life, and will direct me. My ego and pride of knowledge got in the way of hearing Him for a time. I'm also re-evaluating my use of time and the roles that I play in daily life.

I was flattered and humbled while serving at LivePrayer this last Thursday, when one of my fellow workers remarked that I was an important contributor to the ongoing ministry. It was like a smooch on the cheek from the Lord! And so it goes.

Other thoughts
This week marks the 40th anniversary of a music festival called "Woodstock". I was 16 at the time, definitely a "hippie" with long flowing hair, hip-hugger bell bottoms, and a leather-fringed 1/2 vest as my outfit. I was also "a little bit preggers" with my first. I didn't attend as I was in California and dealing with how to tell my parents and my boyfriend, who had just enlisted in the Navy. We were married later that year, and had 4 beautiful children, tho we divorced after ten years.

What I remember most is the music of that time. And the spirit of love and freedom. During, or soon after--can't remember, there was something else called "The Jesus Movement", and a pastor named Chuck Smith who began "Calvary Chapel". About ten years later, at the suggestion of a guy I liked, I attended the first Calvary Chapel in Las Vegas, NV where the pastor (Pat ______) was teaching on the book of Revelation. Soon after, I took that walk that changed my life --and where I reclaimed a true spirit of love and freedom that can only be found in Jesus Christ.

Gods Providence

2009-07-18T08:41:00.005-04:00

I know I've been MIA for a couple of weeks, more on that later.

First I'd like to share about a few things that happened over the last few days. For some time I've had this vision for my website ministry (which has sadly been neglected of late). But like most projects, a vision without direction soon fades. I have been seeking the Lord's direction for some time!

Thursday, I managed to get home before my usual 7PM so dinner was earlier which meant that doing my nightly social network and email reading also began earlier. Mind you, this is highly unusual. I was planning on finally being able to logon for Lifechurch and see the first in the "At the Movies" series at the 6:30p Experience. Just before then, I was going through my FB/Twitter posts and saw Suraj's tweet that LivePrayer was in need of help. Being an LP servant, I quickly logged on to the team sites.During service, I got only four requests, two were from curious or obnoxious folk who didn't say anything and soon closed out but TWO were from wives needing prayer for direction as they were both married to men who have not yet come to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ.

Being wife to one who does not share your faith is a wonderful, trying and very special ministry. My own beloved husband is not just "not yet a believer" but a self-labeled atheist who lovingly makes fun of my "foolishness" and illogical faith. I am blessed in that, at the same time he knows how important my faith and practice is to me. We do have some pretty boisterous "discussions" at times.

So to go on with the story...I have, for some time, been seeking God as to what direction my personal ministry should take...and after the LP session above and a lot of prayer I believe that the focus may be to disciple, pray for, and minister to those who are in simlar circumstances as my own. In other words, to other women like myself who are "unequally yoked" as Paul said in 2 Cor. 6:14. While Paul's context is different than being married to one who isn't a Christian , it is often the connotation in pre-marital pastoral counseling.

Blessedly Peter gives some short sweet advice to those of us who find ourselves in this place (1 Pet. 3:1). The absolute best guidance for us is found in 1 Cor. 7:10-17 --and this is the word that I have followed.

Unfortunately, there will be trials for those of us married to "not yet believers". I married my husband (after widowhood) at a time when I was not walking on the narrow road, but had strayed - think "prodigal daughter" : ). As a result there has been some guilt, and I confess also to some rationalization. After all he IS Jewish. And so, to get to the point--I believe that the Lord is telling me that my primary ministry focus should be to others like me.

My beloved and I have been married for over 11 years now and with his almost militant atheism I have learned a LOT about how to love. As always my hope and daily prayer is that he will someday enter into the lovelight that is Jesus. Until then, I have learned that the best advice is to not preach...but "be Jesus" for him. After all, it's not up to me-but is in God's hands.

So, what do you think? Are you married to one that doesn't yet know our Lord? How often does this come up in your acquaintances? What do you think of the concept?

Where have I been?

My grand-daughters (ages 11 & 7) and niece (14) landed on July 2 and "Grandpa Scott" and I made plans for all kinds of fun stuff. We went to Coney Island and saw Ringling Bros. Circus. We saw a fascinating "Gazillion Bubbles" Show. Rode camels at the Bronx Zoo and visited the SonyWonder Technology Lab. All things that we thought they would enjoy. While I believe that they did, you know what their favorite thing to do was?

"Gramma, can we play on the computer?"
Imagine this: Three young ladies, in NYC-and all they want to do is sit in our small back office/spare room and log on to Barbiegirls.com so they can maneuver into a single virtual room and do stuff! It was a private laugh between my husband and I as we are also geeks and spend a lot of our own free time in front of computers.

They DID enjoy their visit to F.A.O. Schwartz-the hallmark NYC toy Store. As we all went from floor to floor, including the giant piano (from the movie "Big") we thought that, for sure, this was going to be a costly shopping excursion. However, of all the toys, and games and other diversions, they were fascinated most with the "old fashioned" candy--and after $15.00 worth of sweets, we left.

I loved watching the girls play together, and was secretly pleased that they enjoyed computers (like their grandma/aunt) but the greatest pleasure for me was seeing things through their eyes. As Jesus said, we must have faith and be as "the little ones"(Mark 10:15)

On Sunday July 12, we went to the "unveiling" of my beloved friend (and mother in law). In Jewish tradition a year after one is laid to rest, their monument is blessed and "unveiled". I was pleased to read "The Excellent Wife" from Proverbs 31:10-31 in her honor. I miss my friend.

Of course, last week was playing catch up at work. The down side of taking time off is that the work missed is waiting.

Abiding Ways website progress

With all that has gone on, there was no work done for the last couple of weeks on the teaching ministries. I am so far behind!!! I am inclined to believe and trust that all things happen for a reason and have shed the guilt inherent in missing deadlines as a project manager and just trust the Lord.

I have given a lot of thought to the teaching and classes that I want to offer, as well as features and needs etc. So, the weekend is putting it "out there", including something especially for the focus ministry for the "spiritually single".

As things happen, I hope and pray also for volunteers. Especially ladies out there.

Life in general

God is good therefore my life is good! My personal studies are taking me to new places as well as revisiting "what I know". I am paying much more attention lately to Scripture memorization. I am learning more about Jesus! Drawing nearer to Him everyday. It sounds a bit funny especially as I've been a Christian for almost 30 years. One thing that I find myself doing more of is just trusting God, even and especially with the little things of daily life. Everything of late just seems to be going better. It's hard to explain but it just is!

Help Me Understand, If You Can?

2009-07-07T13:39:00.007-04:00

As I sit here and marvel at the multi-network news coverage of the Michael Jackson Memorial, I am puzzled, amazed and curious all at the same time.

Before I continue-I want to let any possible detractors know that I, as many millions, loved his music, his dancing, his talent. Like so many of my generation, the Jackson Five was one of my favorites, and I blasted "Beat It" and "Billie Jean" and marvelled at the short film music videos "Thriller"...and my personal favorite "Smooth Criminal".

That being said and settled, I am a little distressed at the big deal and massive coverage of his memorial. I am witnessing L.A. close down highways for the caravan to Staples Center--in California, a state that, due to budget shortages, is discontinuing services to the poor, and cutting way back on educational programs. This spectacle is costing the city of L.A. about 3 million dollars!

Network news and other major media outlets have had almost 24/7 coverage since MJ died...almost 2 weeks ago. That so many are out of work, soldiers are dying in our wars,
kids are going to bed hungry and people are homeless in the wealthiest country in the world seems secondary to this entertainer. I really had to stop and think about why this is. Why are people focusing on this when there are really IMPORTANT things that could make better use of their time and resources. Where are the priorities of those who have fallen into the manufactured mystique of this man. If you know, please help me understand.

I wonder if they have examined this as they stand outside the memorial venue just to "be there". Don't they have a life, jobs, children, anything MORE important to do than mourn a man who, while generous, was just a man. Don't they realize that his generosity was made possible because his fans paid big to be entertained. In effect, we, as fans, made him able to be generous.
Doesn't anyone get it? Don't they know that its all about $$$. And not for any one of those millions of people who really have need.If any one of them died, would MJ come to their funeral? Would L.A. close the freeway for their motorcade? I think not.

Out of respect, I won't bring up the weaknesses and negative publicity surrounding him and his lifestyle and even his death. NO one is perfect. And now, MJ is going to stand before his Maker and ours. In the end, he's no better or worse than any of us he stands before God. I really wonder what God thinks of the big deal being made. Please...someone, ANYONE-is it me that is it clueless?
Heb. 9:27

Back to Basics

2009-06-29T05:40:00.003-04:00

Last week I found myself so into keeping up with Tweets and Facebook and other social networking tools that I lost myself! I was so involved in reading and responding to tothers that before I knew it, time had flown by and things I wanted to do, other than this didn't get accomplished.

I really wondered at that and came to the conclusion that this is one of those things that as Paul said is "permissable but not beneficial"; for me anyway. (1 Cor. 6:12, 1 Cor. 10:23). So, now these things are on a schedule of sorts. I found a program/plug-in for MS Outlook called TwinBox that lets me store up and peruse on my time. It helps. Don't mis-understand. I really enjoy these things-they make me feel "connected" and in touch with everyone. I also understand that for some, this is part of their work and/or ministry. But for me-it is something that needed to be trimmed and tamed.

Along the same lines, I've lost sight of some of the basics of my faith as I do the work of building my little website ministry. It is hard work and take up a LOT of time. Time stolen from my time with the Lord. I could rationalize and say "But its His work"...and that would be true. But how good a job can I do if I don't keep in touch with the boss? And how easy it is to lose sight of who the Lord is.

So, this week my first priority is to re-visit who Jesus is; biblically, historically and personally. Sort of like a second honeymoon! I truly have missed that "first love" feeling.

So, where did I start? In the book of John, of course. John 1:1-4 reminds me that Jesus was, is and ever shall be as the "logos"; "the WORD". Did you know that John actually borrowed this term "logos" from greek philosophy? It was a term used to describe the "all encompassing, uncomprehensible Creator".

That is my Lord! That is my King! And I think that is where I will dwell for awhile. Its a lot to meditate on. And just think, He, the Word, is my friend.

Dads!

2009-06-21T07:22:00.003-04:00

I have been, and am blessed to have quite a few father figures in my life. Tantamount in my thoughts today is my dad, Chuck Brode (Charles M. Brode Feb. 4, 1930-Sept. 23, 2003).

I was a "daddy's girl" for sure. I looked like him and more than anything I wanted to please him. I think my fondest childhood memory is hanging out with him while he worked on one of our many used cars. Sometimes, he would even let me, a 10 year old, help him. While he was tweaking the carb or adjusting something or other, I would get to start the car and push on the gas. "Just a little harder, Sissy" or "Be sure to let go of the key after it starts".

Dad wasn't only a mechanic and a former stock car driver, he was a macho construction worker, and later a fine wood cabinet maker. With these occupations also came the "payday party" and afterward, the tensions of Mom and Dad arguing about his drinking. Needless to say, my own perception of my father changed as I grew older and more aware of his character flaws. Hero worship ceased about the time I graduated high school.

In later years, Dad also recognized that he was an alcoholic and at the time of his death he, with the help of "Bill Wilson" had been sober for almost 30 years. Even so, as his health allowed, he was active in Alcoholics Anonymous.

My greatest and last memory of my dad was the time I spent with him right before he left this world. Presumably for a short time, I'd gone to stay with him while he recovered from one procedure and prepared for another. At the time, well, I just didn't know that it was a "good bye" time.

The "two weeks" turned into almost 3 months. During that time, we more or less got into a routine. Dad was also the caretaker for my uncle who lived in the same senior complex. Uncle had had a stroke and needed help preparing his breathing treatments. Now, in addition to running errands, I had taken over this task. I was also blessed to have my own children around to help me! And the joy of grandchildren too. All were a help to me and even made sure I got out of the house!

During this time, my dad and I surpassed the father-daughter relationship. We talked politics, health, computers and of course, faith! After a study time, my dad said "Sissy, just so you know, I believe the same as you."
"I know Daddy, I walked with you when you made the altar call, remember?"
"Yes, but ...." (pause), "I just wanted you to know"

Soon after, Dad went into the hospital, and well, never came home. To this day, I hang onto this brief conversation, knowing that when I am called, he'll be there to greet me.

OTHER DADS IN MY LIFE
My beloved Scott: Thank you for being such an awesome example to/for my children and grandchildren! A leader, a counselor, a listening ear. Whether you believe it or not, you're God's most precious gift to me!

Most of all I am a child of the KING! Pastor Craig presented an awesome image of our Father God last night. You can see it again at Church Online

Scripture has LOTS of references to "father". My favorite is the one Jesus used: abba.

† ἀββᾶ* (→ πατήρ)
B. ἀββᾶ in Early Christianity.
As concerns the usage of Jesus, the probability is that He employed the word אַבָּא not merely where it is expressly attested (Mk. 14:36) but in all cases, and particularly in address to God, where the Evangelists record Him as saying ὁ πατήρ, πάτερ, ὁ πατήρ μου, πάτερ μου, and even perhaps πάτερ ἡμῶν. In so doing He applies to God a term which must have sounded familiar and disrespectful to His contemporaries because used in the everyday life of the family. In other words, He uses the simple “speech of the child to its father”.
When the Aramaic term is used in the Greek Epistles of Paul (Rom. 8:15; Gal. 4:6), there may well underlie it a liturgical reminiscence, possibly the beginning of the Lord’s Prayer. In any case there can be no doubt that the use of the word in the community is linked with Jesus’ term for God and thus denotes an appropriation of the relationship proclaimed and lived out by Him. Jewish usage shows how this Father-child relationship to God far surpasses any possibilities of intimacy assumed in Judaism, introducing indeed something which is wholly new.
(from Theological dictionary of the New Testament. 1964-c1976. Vols. 5-9 edited by Gerhard Friedrich. Vol. 10 compiled by Ronald Pitkin. (G. Kittel, G. W. Bromiley & G. Friedrich, Ed.) (electronic ed.) (1:4-6). Grand Rapids, MI: Eerdmans.

abid•ing \ə-ˈbī-diŋ\

2009-06-13T11:17:00.006-04:00

Someone asked me the other day why I had chosen "Abiding Ways" as the name for the ministry.

After a few moments of thought, I explained that my nature is to always have a goal to work toward-and long ago this awkward, old-fashioned word popped out at me while reading my "life verse" John 15:4. At the time, all I had was a King James version. I realized that this was my personal goal as a Christian. To ABIDE in Christ as He commanded.

As I grew in the Lord, I discovered that the word used in the original language was μένω and that the richness of the word was so much more than what I had thought - and consequently not just a means to an end, but a lifetime pursuit.

Today, I am still working toward that goal, and the greater goal which Paul described in Philippians 3:14: I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (NASB).

This week has been an especially challenging one for me. I ask for prayer for my son, Eric. The Lord knows the circumstances.

Below are a few references for the intellectually inclined that have directed me along the way.

abid•ing \ə-ˈbī-diŋ\
adj
14c
: enduring,
continuing 〈an abiding interest in nature〉
(Merriam-Webster, I. (2003). Merriam-Webster's collegiate dictionary. (Eleventh ed.). Springfield, Mass.: Merriam-Webster, Inc.)

3306 μένω [meno /men·o/] v. A root word; TDNT 4:574; TDNTA 581; GK 3531; 120
occurrences; AV translates as “abide” 61 times, “remain” 16 times, “dwell” 15
times, “continue” 11 times, “tarry” nine times, “endure” three times, and
translated miscellaneously five times. 1 to remain, abide. 1a in reference to
place. 1a1 to sojourn, tarry. 1a2 not to depart. 1a2a to continue to be present.
1a2b to be held, kept, continually. 1b in reference to time. 1b1 to continue to
be, not to perish, to last, endure. 1b1a of persons, to survive, live. 1c in
reference to state or condition. 1c1 to remain as one, not to become another or
different. 2 to wait for, await one.
(from Enhanced Strong's Lexicon (1966))

Online religion

2009-06-08T10:54:00.004-04:00

I spent a lot of my weekend continuing work on Abiding Ways-my personal online ministry for Bible study and fellowship. Sorta like a small group or church but "always open".

It is a LOT of work which is likely why I took so long to get back to it, after having been invaded well over a year ago. This blog was the beginning. The last few days have been spent setting up a few things, primarily getting Moodle set up. This was especially fun (yes, I'm being facetious) because I had never used it before and like most everything I do, I was learning while doing. So far, it has been a good experience and I hope readers will visit the site and let me know what they think. Everything is, of course, free. I have subscribed to Google's AdSense both here on the blog as well as on the site itself. Does anyone have any experience with it? I don't want to make a million-but perhaps to just defray some of the costs inherent in any personal website that has the space for the ministry. In time, I hope to also have Amazon and CBD links but this is, after all, just the re-birth.

At the time this ministry was first conceived( Feb 2002) there wasn't a lot of online fellowship, resources etc. I was in the throes of post 9/11 depression, having just been laid off, at my Wall Street job. I felt the call to minister, to teach, and to have a place where agorophobic folks like me could meet to study, pray and fellowship from their computers. I also don't drive, and am blessed with a wonderful husband who happens to be an atheist so there is/was a lot of different motivations for me. The Lord had provided the opportunity and the time so I got to work! Quickly I became discouraged as I realized how little I really knew about web dev and what it really took to get a ministry going. Anyway, here it is over 7 years later and I'm getting back to where I belong.

In that time, I realized that there are a lot of web places now, for study and worship and fellowship. The "stall" in my ministry came as I battled with pride and discouragement. After all, what is my measily site? THEN the Lord spoke to me in a big way-sorta like "If you build it, they will come" only my field is a lot bigger than a baseball diamond. Ultimately, in that respect, I've come to understand that even if no one ever comes, well, its ok because I'm being obedient to God and perhaps, according to His will, someone, someday will show up and meet Jesus! In the meantime, it is my job to trust and obey.

OK-so where am I going with all this? To the ministry of Lifechurch.tv

Two years ago, while I was again wandering in the wilderness of 'purpose" I picked up a book called "Chazown" by Pastor Craig Groeschel. This led me to investigate LifeChurch and "try it on for size". I had been looking for a church home for years and never found a peace about it. Initially it was kind of awkward for me as there wasn't the same connection as I had always previously experienced in worship but the teaching message was right on so I continued to drop in. In recent months I have started participating (sporadically) in a LifeGroup that meets on Friday nights online at 9P EDT and serving on the LivePrayer team on Sundays--ALL Online!

To get to the point, my church home is online! Available 7 days a week. While I sit in front of my computer, I can serve God as a member of the prayer team, worship and rock out with LifeChurch via video, fellowship with others right there in the Experience Chatroom, and listen to inspired messages delivered by Pastor Craig and others that really apply to 21st century believers. I also get to rejoice with those who receive Christ as Savior!

The best part is that this is an INTERNATIONAL ministry. During one Experience of ChurchOnline, there were folks from 40 countries!

Also, on a personal level, I can get to church EVERY Sunday( or most any other day of the week), be of service, study and discuss the Word, and also maintain peace in my home. Being a part of LifeChurch and ChurchOnline has provided and I am sure, will continue to provide the way to be an active part of a body of believers and, at the same time do it in such a way that it doesn't take time away from my relationships and responsibilities.

That this is possible and beneficial has re-ignited my own passion to serve Christ through Abiding Ways. Yes, it's a lot of work, and yes, I may be un/under-qualified. Lord knows my insecurities and faults and challenges. That being said, I will continue to trust and obey.

2009-06-07T03:56:00.001-04:00

This and that

2009-06-07T03:40:00.006-04:00

It's been a few weeks since my first post, but I promised myself that I would blog only as I had the time.

Well its about 4 a.m. and here I am, up all night doing something at least moderately productive - at least from where I sit.

I have started working on the ministry that I believe God has given me. I'll tell you the whole story on the site someday. Yes, its rather skimpy right now but it's all good.

Please check it out and let me know what you think, ok. You can either comment here or email me at abiding@abidingways.org.

OK, it IS time to get some sleep. The other work that I have been given begins at 10:30 a.m. (EDT). Come and meet with me in the Live Chat LifeChurch-Online We are starting OnePrayer

Priorities, prayer and Jesus's name.

2009-05-24T09:08:00.002-04:00

So much of my devotional and quiet time this weekend points to "priorities". I was reading this morning from "Our Journey" a devotional of Walk in the Word and Pastor James McDonald. The devotion talks about Abraham's obedience-even to his willingness to sacrifice the "son of promise", Isaac.

I confess that while my heart's desire is to keep God #1, the daily rigors and "to do list" of my life too often takes precedence over spiritual disciplines. Don't get me wrong, I daily spend at least a few minutes in prayer and devotional reading. I believe that my life, in general, mirrors the love of Christ and loving God. What nags at my heart is that there are times when, in making choices-I question my motives.

This is especially true in my prayer life. Daily, I pray-sometimes as brief as saying the Lord's prayer. Too often, to my mind, it seems almost mechanical-just another thing I can check off my "to do" list. Sure, there is usually at least one day a week when its all out, on my knees, PRAYER...and I love it! Unfortunately, IMHO, really talking, worshipping and fellowshipping with my Lord is the exception and not the rule. So, to improve on this I have committed to get up a little earlier each and every morning before my beloved gets up (privacy is one of my excuses) and instead of rushing to email or Facebook I will pray first!

Another thing the Lord has shown me is that in speaking of His many blessings I usually just say "I've been blessed" and to me it seems that I don't often say WHO provided the blessing and giving the Lord the glory. True, the majority of those who know me, also know that I'm a Christian, and I assume they also know by inference that it is Jesus who has blessed me. Thankfully, my cube mate is also a believer, so I KNOW she KNOWS ...but I feel sometimes that I'm intentionally hiding His glory. It feels wrong to me! So, to make it right, I pray --and hope readers will pray also, that I may be bolder and say it out loud!! JESUS blessed me!!!!

Lastly, for some time, the Lord has been showing me that He'd like to spend more time with me! This was made even more apparent in this week's message at LifeChurch (Church ONLINE!). The series is "Elijah". Something that was especially significant to me, this week, is that while I see him as a prophet and called specifically by God, he was also an ordinary person-just like me. Pastor Brandon taught us about four qualities/characteristics of effective prayer that really spoke to my desire for a better time of prayer.

First-humility in prayer. It is the posture/attitude of our hearts that God sees. Not words mumbled as part of a routine. After all, in praying, we are speaking to the King of the Universe! So, approach Him in the manner He deserves.
Next, specificity in prayers. I'm not talking about the "name it and claim it-genie in a god" sort, but really crying out to the Lord-praying heartfully, remembering that in prayer, we are in His presence.
Thirdly, be persistent! Elijah sent his servant seven times before he was satisfied. Paul, in asking that his thorn be removed, prayed three times. And our Lord Jesus, in the garden before His crucifixion also prayed multiple times that the cup be removed from Him.
Lastly, pray expectantly! In faith, wait on the Lord. Jesus said (Mark 11:24) "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." One of the most awesome promises of God is that He hears us! He may say "yes" or "no" or "wait" but He will answer.

That being said, its getting near the time for 11 AM (EDT) services! Jesus has blessed me with the privilege of serving on the "Live Prayer" team for this Experience time. Hope to see you there!